I wish................

I wish moonbeams could be kept in a jar
I wish dreams could be tightly held and kept in a jar
I wish fireflies could live on forever in a jar
I wish meteor could be kept in a jar
I wish fairies exist and stays in my jar
I wish da stars could be kept in a jar
I wish broken heart could be easily mend
I wish there were no complications between men
I wish promises were really made to be kept and not be broken
I wish love will not fade away
I wish hatred be carried away
I wish happiness be showered upon us each day

I wish...
I just wish...
I wish.. .

Sorry

I'm so so sorry for what I've done to you.. By saying sorry won't make you feel better I know, but thats da least I could say now, or rather thats da only thing I could say. Omg. I'm such a bitch, bitch among da bitches. Can't believe I came up with thing like this. My unintentional idea was ridiculously stupid and insane, and the worst part was you agreed boldly, without any hesitation! How stupid can I be? Ofcourse you'd agree, how can I not know this is what you've always wanted over the years?? It's what you've always longed for.. Sigh. My stupidity has just broke your heart into pieces!

You'll never read this, but I just wanna apologise for what I did. I'm truly sorry, and I regret over everything. ( Regret is useless I know ) I guess I really screwed up, I took things for granted, YOU for granted. My fault.


* I felt so bad when I read ur text message, I still feel bad. I don't know what to say except for sorry.

Memories

I am having flashbacks of the past. This was being triggered by the New Moon movie that I have just watched it yesterday.


The story brought back some of the old memories that I had before. I know those feelings that Bella has when she was all left alone. The emptiness and depression of being apart.
I am feeling the heartache. Those memories that you have once shared and spent together.
I remember how hard it is to leave it behind.


Did you have moments like this? At least
once?

Cheryl Cole is the world's sexiest woman

Well, there was only ever going to be one winner, wasn't there?

Queen of Everything Cheryl Cole has been named the Sexiest Woman in the World in FHM's Hot 100 survey. The news comes after almost 10 million votes were cast by the magazine's readers worldwide: yep, from the wilds of Borneo to the plains of Outer Mongolia, men just can't get enough of our Chezza.

The oh-so-popular pop princess knocked last year's winner, Transformers star Megan Fox, into second place...

..while another Hollywood hotshot, Jessica Alba, came third...


So now i would like to ask a stupid question here...
Am i sexy enough to compete with three of them? by this picture

Give me some comment....Thanks~

My latest picture

Turning Point

I was away for 3 days && in just three days I was changed wholly. From the top of my head to the tip of my toes, from the inside-out. So, to past be the post I have written before, as I shall not look behind but continue moving forward (: I have decided that from this day on, I'll look at things from a different point of view. I'll look at things from a more optimistic perspective. I have decided that it's time I claim to be the person I am supposed to be. Its time for me to stand up & shine for Jesus (: So alas, my new life begins as of this very second!!



God never promised us days without pain, laughter without sorrow or sun without rain. But he did promise strenght to get through each day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.

"But those who look to the Lord will renew their strenght. They will soar on wings of eagles; They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." - Isaih 40:31

Tony Leung making love with Tang Wei

Join Tsai 蔡依林 kissed Edison?

Too Tired to be Tested

"Sorrow can be alleviated by a good sleep, a bath and a glass of wine."

St. Thomas Aquinas

I came across this quote last night and it made me smile. However, I don't especially love baths and wine can give me a headache, I can definately identify with the sleeping part. Today, in fact, was a terrible day and a prime example. I was exhausted. 7 1/2 months of pregnancy, the incessant babble of a two year old, and the inevitable food battle with my seven year old, put me over the edge. I knew I was tired. I knew life was going to be hard to deal with. Yet, I was still unable to keep Monster Mommy in her cage.
~
I finally had a chance to take a nap. As I fell asleep, I felt as though the world was going to end. My eyebrows were furrowed and my mouth turned in a frown. My eyes were even slightly damp as if they could cry. The last thing I did was say a silent prayer: "Lord, what do I do now? Come Holy Spirit." As I slept, I dreamed. I don't remember the dream, but I was aware of my body and spirit being renewed in increments.
~
Once again, "good sleep" had brought me back from the brink. It is one thing I can do to keep at least a little more peace in our little family. Tonight, even though it's Friday, I think we will all be turning in a little earlier than usual.

HAhaHAhaHAha~

hahahahahahahah

joined RAPISTS yeserday
hahahahahah
Miss R-Rebecca
Miss A-Amy
Miss P-Pauline
Miss S-Shinta
Miss I-Ivy
Miss T-Tina
Miss s-Stephy
Miss hyphenn-Ivy
im the new member of RAPISTS
haha
lovin' my life, gals!

hahahahahahahahah
today was a fun fun day
woohoo~
today do project until 12.30
ten go meet jess they all
lols
then after that we went compass
n ate kfc
3 variety meals n 3 shroom burgers
7 of us
then we go to sculpture park
then i joined something!!!
haha
cannot tell people yet
wan to know??
i will tell at the right time
haha
anyway we had so much fun
then i had to go
but we plae the truth circle last
then i went home
so today was fun
sooooooo much better than yesterday
haha
byyeee
:)

Real

I forgot...

i've been so engrossed with trying to find a more stable life that i actually forgot how fun flying can be when u actually meet very nice colleagues... no matter how tough the flight is, having nice people with work with is such a pleasure... I've been reminded of that recently in my recent flights... makes me feel like delaying my departure...

just back from sydney, i went out again alone... walked to Darling Harbour and Opera house again... the weather was cloudy and cooling.. slight drizzle... nice for a walk.. not nice for phototaking... i can only remember the last time i walk to Darling Harbour and Opera house was with Serene... we had quite a bit of fun... she is in her MIA mode again... i wonder if its because i am kind of related to her exbf who is my friend... maybe tts why...

I forgot that liking someone is about perseverance too... I forgot that people can be touched overtime too... dunno why.. i was suddenly reminded while working today....

Deep And Meaningless

I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

[Chorus:]
If you call me today
I’ll say that I’m fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I’d do it again to relieve what we had
(Damn thats sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me

OhMyGosh!!!!!

I really know my blog is dead.
HAHAH. :]
so im here to relive it a little.
HAHHA.

Monday lesson was difficult.
and mood wasn't very good during lesson.
thanks them, for trying to help me.
though didn't say anything, but i know.
thanks.

meeting after that.
attendance wasn't that good.
disappointed.

while walking to control station, i was a bit high.
kept talking nonsense.

and i realise my mood changed very fast.
or rather during lesson time my mood was never good.


tuesday PHP lesson.
fun i suppose.
forget already.
i only know i talked quite a lot that day.
and was laughing very hard too.

after lesson practice.
Alex asked us to use sponge for that new song.
but i think it's going to be weird.
i can't play alto1 part very well. ))=


wednesday OS.
i think OS lesson is fun thought i don't really understand, nor doing all the practial myself.
last time was Barry, this time is Wayne.
but at least they willing to teach and answer all my stupid question.
not to forget, Roger did answer my question too, and letting me draw his hand though it can be remove easily.

went food haven with Pei Pei and Pei Ru, thought i didn't eat.
saw Yanni and Winson.
and also Terence.

learn to install dual OS.
fun yet difficult.
lesson ended early.

supposedly should be walking alone, but ended up walking with David and Joel.
actually i know they are behind but i don't dare to turn behind.
thanks to Joel for calling my name.

home after that and went City centre to meet Janet and Angel with Yanni.
everyone reached almost the same time other then angel.
mac for dinner.
shop around.
and i bought my heels already!


i'm quite prepare for new year already, only left with hair clip, hair band, necklace, ear ring & bracelet.

time to sleep
good night.

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Mr Fighting

i finished watching MR FIGHTING (:
so touching man.
i never teared more in any show.
ok, maybe except LILO&STITCH.
ANYWAY.
i love the plot, the storyline, the summary (even!) and the WHOLE THING LAH.
so yeah.

did i mention how '!!' i was?
kept hearing sounds which went 'tok-tok' and 'ding ding'
either from some wooden thing and some triangle
and after a whole day
i found out that someone's holding a funeral downstairs at one of the multi-purpose spaces
OH BOY.
how much blur-er can i be.

ah.
i read anyan's blog.
i dont know why, i feel she's the ready-to-lash-it-out blogger.
proud of her recent blog, on band.
for no exact reason, really.
so i sound pretty retarded, but oh well. x)

ate DURIANS today.
seriously. i think my mouth stink stink stink now.
REALLY.
but.. heh. :D

oh yes.
so random.
but i realised i spend so much time in front of the computer,
but i hardly really with people or anything.
instead i spend more time handling or testing computer codes and videos,
gees.
maybe i should be some video editor when i grow up.
(:

I have never feel this stress in my life!
-Not even O level! Why now?!


7 more days to Final Review... goosshhh.
Just kill me...I am both physically and
mentally wear out and can no
longer continue..


1 day only intake a meal
Sleeping less than 3 hrs
Emotionally affected
Mentally going
insane...


How can that be Q Q?
She used to in-take at least
3 meals per day & needed
to sleep for at least 7 hrs.
What's happening now?!!


oh well...................
hopeless. i'm a gone case.

Friendship

Friendship isn't always easily described. Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we are sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and more (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we made in life.


"A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who lifts our lives
with beauty, joy and grace.
And make the whole world we live in
A better and happier place.... "